There are moments in life when you realize that you are in the midst of a miracle– prophetic promises fulfilled. Just when we’ve settled into believing God is good, He shows up again and is so much better than we could ask or imagine.
My husband Jason and I have been married for 13 1/2 years. We’ve been incredibly blessed to have a marriage full of adventure as we’ve pursued God’s best for us. Along the way, we’ve had challenges (and lots of learning opportunities) and have grown closer at every turn.
I always had an expectation in my heart that when I was ready, getting pregnant and starting a family would happen without difficulty. However, it wasn’t that simple.
Even though we longed and tried to get pregnant, it was just not happening. This turned into a long, almost decade-long, journey for us, pursuing natural means of fertility, physical checkups, and waiting. As we waited, I had a discussion with my chiropractor, who suggested that a severe car accident I had when I was 26 may be a contributing to factor to the difficulties we were having conceiving. So, we prayed about pursuing more intensive fertility treatments, but our insurance would not cover this and the cost felt unreachable. I began to wonder if I’d ever get to experience motherhood through pregnancy, and my heart grieved for my husband, who longed to be a father.
During this process the Lord would remind us of the legacy He had in store for our family. We would stand in church every time there was prayer for those that longed to have kids. Friends would gather with us privately and pray over us and declare God’s faithfulness. Over the years these powerful words and prayers seemed to grow almost painful as they were left unfulfilled.
But amidst this pain, each one was covered in hope and promise, and I tucked these words deep in my heart.
We feel adoption is one of the most beautiful examples of the gospel– giving the orphan a home. So we pursued foster care and private adoption. We learned so much about the need for adoptive parents to bring kids out of tough situations, and I grew more and more excited at the opportunity to welcome a child into our family. In late 2014, we were finalizing our adoption paperwork and had raised over $6500 to pay for the initial steps of private adoption with the help and support of friends and family. We scheduled our final home inspection and interview with the state in January of 2015.
Two weeks after our final interview with the state, I realized I needed to take a pregnancy test. Every sign pointed to the potential of pregnancy, but I couldn’t let my heart go there one more time for the fear of disappointment. I reluctantly went to the store, and when the pregnancy test showed “positive” I stood in shock. I let out a scream that made Jason come running to my side. We sat with that positive pregnancy test on the edge of our bed and wept together with joy. It was unbelievable. The feeling of a promise fulfilled that we’d almost let go of. At times it felt we had let go and God was the One still holding on. In a moment, everything changed, and it was totally unexpected.
Today, we are in a season of feeling completely empowered to give hope to those in waiting. We are so inspired to encourage the broken hearted that, in a moment, it can all change! I fully believe that choosing thankfulness along the way, celebrating the victories of those around you, and remaining faithful in the midst of it all will plant seeds– and while they may take time to grow, their fruit will come in season. It may not always look exactly the way we plan in our minds, but oh, how sweet that fruit is when it becomes ripe in the right timing!
Each moment of this pregnancy is beautiful and full of joy, and this little girl on the way has prophetic words spoken, journals written, and now songs sung in expectation of her arrival. What a legacy she already has. Though there was pain in the night, joy arrived in the morning. And it is a joy that is far deeper, sweeter and richer than I ever dreamed imaginable! She is, and will always be, an undeniable sign of the faithfulness of God in our lives.
This song is birthed from that place of expectation, but also from a place of seeing promises fulfilled right before me as this child grows every day. His love can move mountains. In my life I’ve seen him do incredible things with the tiny amount of faith I carry. What an amazing and good father we have!
You are faithful, You never give up – never give up on me
You are able, to finish the work You started in me
You are stable, through every change that this life can bring
You remain
Watch Amy sing this song during a spontaneous moment of worship here.
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Amy and Jason Miller are a part of the Bethel Church worship team and family. Together, they have set out to let their journey and breakthrough in infertility inspire hope in the lives of others walking in similar journeys and who are in need of breakthrough in their own lives.
I continue to be so encouraged by this testimony! Thank you for sharing it.
so sweet ! our God is awesome and faithful. thanks for the sharing .! I have a kidney failure , and going on dialysis right now , i feel God will heal me and get me a new kidney without any operation from any other people, as u said i am waiting on our God timing .One day this will be my testimony for the rest of my life and my generation . Amen ..
So what happened regarding your adoption and foster care journey? Did you end up bringing home adopted children as well?
Precisely what I was wondering…
He is indeed a faithful God and father! He never let go his promises no matter how hard it may seem to us! We thank God for fulfilling his promises in your life!!
wow this is so profound, such a word in season for me and a great encouragement. Thanks Amy for sharing. I’m currently in the hardest season of my life so far and just getting frustrated and wanting this season to be over but this is all just a wonderful reminder of the faithfulness of God and as painful as this season is in my life, i just pray for strengthening and patience.
He is so faithful! My husband and I went through similar trials. We went through almost 5 years of infertility, drs saying we would never concieve on our own. We tried everything in our budget. We were beginning the process of fostering as well. We went on our 5th anniversary trip to Florida. When we got back home, a few days passed and i woke up and I heard God clearly say for me to get up and take a test. I told God no. I told him, I can’t go hrough the hurt again. And he said “you are my child, I plan to prosper you, trust in ME”. So I took a test, sat it on my windowsill and left the bathroom. 30 min later! I remembered the test and checked it to see. Sure enough it said pregnant. I will never forget that day. I dropped to my knees crying out thanks and praise to such a faithful and loving God. The next few weeks were crazy. Drs tried to tell me I wasn’t pregnant, and God kept telling me to trust him. Finally the drs saw what we had been saying for 3 weeks. Our beautiful baby and her heartbeat were there on the screen. She has been such a miracle, blessing and an answer to every prayer. She’s 7 now, and we have 2 boys as well! I conceived 4 times! When drs said I never would. I did loose my 3rd early on but even still he was a miracle, because God did things that no person ever could. Reading your story brought back all these emotions. <3
The story is so much similar to ours except that v went through ivf which was successful but failure in the 1st month itself. We were 7 years into our marriage then. That’s when His promises became more of a reality assuring us that we’ll birth Isaac and not Ishmael. It’s been 5 years now and we are hoping and thanking Him for the unseen blessing He has in store for us. At the moment, I’ve had a fall and fractured my leg (knee). Had surgery and resting. Amy your testimony has encouraged me to keep my eyes fixed on the one who promised – Faithful one. Thanks. God bless.
Thank you for sharing! What a remarkable God we serve! Sometimes it’s hard to remember His promises to us when the emptiness is so profound. I will stand on the promises that God will do what He says He will do! When I was pregnant, (out of wedlock) my son was ALWAYS surrounded in worship. I sing on the team at my church and to this day… He LOVES worshiping with us. He’s a year and a half and full of energy but loves to watch all the musicians and sing. Your daughter is getting the greatest legacy. Thanks for sharing your story.
Thank you so much for sharing your story Amy & Jason!
I was visiting Bethel from London and was at the service where you sang this.
We tried for 3 years for our son, Theo, and he is the fulfilment of many prophecies and desires!
We were convinced we’d come out of that season, but then I developed a herniated disc, which delayed us being able to try for a second child for a year.
When I came to Bethel, I knew this was weighing on my heart but that my emotions were mingled with some that were left over from the initial wait for Theo.
As you sang this, the weight of the emotions and thoughts which I’d been trying to process with God just fell off me as I wept.
As we sat down, the prophetic painting directly in front of me was of a baby in utero and I knew it was from God to me.
Then during Kris’s talk, he suddenly stopped and invited people to stand who were ‘experiencing a delay in conceiving’ (perfectly worded because we’d had to stop trying while I sought help for my back which had now improved). I stood and was prayed for.
It was an incredible night of breakthrough and I went back to the house and told my husband everything.
A week or so after returning to the UK from Bethel we had a positive pregnancy test and this miracle baby is due in January!
God is so good and faithful. He has fulfilled so many promises to us, including every aspect of this one which he gave to me during our first season of infertility:
Psalm 113:9 He settles the childless woman in her home as the happy mother of children.
I pray this testimony blesses and builds faith in others who are waiting.
Que hermoso testimonio, gracias y muchas felicidades Amy y Jason, por esa bendición y regalo de Dios.
Dios esta vivo y siempre con nosotros.
P.D. Muchas felicidades por tus alabanzas, son bellas y también cantas hermoso.
This is just what I needed to read. I have experienced two miscarriages in the past year that have broken my heart. Your testimony is hitting hard and home to me. I also experienced a car crash at the same age of 26. A health professional that I saw suggested that it may be factor in the miscarriages. I am holding onto hope and believing my husband and I will bring a baby to full term and into this world through the power of love of an unfailing God! Thank you for sharing and thank you for singing!
Hi Amy… thanks so much for sharing yours and Jason’s remarkable journey! We have been trying for 10 years now and are closing in to the 11th year without any success. We have had so many people pray and believe for us, speak words over us etc. And your testimony in our life is so encouraging. I know that the Lord is able to provide us with baby/babies in His perfect time. We rejoice in God’s goodness, love and awesomeness! Please do pray for us
Hi Pamela! Keep believing! My husband and I are pregnant after 13 years. We knew we had a promise from God. Rest in His love and peace and know the finished work of the Cross. Blessings on you and your children that are coming!
Thank you so much Hilary. God bless you and your family as well. Love….